Well one more week and my first round will end t_t
My fav workouts are Plyometrics, Yoga, ab ripper X, kenpo (wich is today) and core sinergystics.
I wanna do it again X3..

Accepting death
On sunday one week ago..
my body was looking great! lean and pumped ,
so I got lazy to cook at night.. luckly my mom had cooked meat ready, and told me I should eat it, everyone else already ate..

So i did..
1 hour later. it all started..
I started to shake, and i felt Freezing cold..
I went for another hoodie..
but it didnt help.. I was shivering so violently..
and my heart was pumping so fast X_X so intense, i thought it was going to blow up.. and i was going to be found dead in my room..
for each heart beat it felt like someone hitting your ribcage inside out with a hammer..

I even remembered the alien movie.. (chestbuster scenes, where the alien comes out of the chest )

i spentone hour like this..
after this.. i went to bed in cold sweat..
still shivering .. and with temperature.

I woke up at the middle of the night to the bathroom.. to (vomit X_X)
one of those times where you dont actually do anything but noise..

went back to sleep more dead than anything.. and started sweating like hell..

Woke up the next morning with a dry skin and mouth.. and soaking wet clothes and sheets.. i had sweat all night..
my face was all thin and more pale than before, i could see my veins T_T.. my body looked all skiny and scrawnie.. I was so sad..

but made myself eat like always..(made myself becaause i was still sicked out)..

What caused all this?
whyy?
My mom and dad came to me and told me, my sister had
put cooking oil on the meat..

on purpose? who knows..
I know processed foods kills me ... litteraly

I really felt like dying..
and acepted my death.. i just sayd..

"guess i wont get to see you again.."

Ive slept better this last week,and taken more food than before could..and trained harder.

Dreaming 3 things in 1 sleep :3 kinda makes you feel alive.


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